Five Years Ago Today
It was five years ago today that I lost my mother. It seems completely unreal to me that she has been gone for five years. I remember that the last time I talked to her I was on my cell phone by the pool at our apartment and my battery was about ready to die so I told her I would just talk to her when she got home. Of course we all know how that story ends. Did I tell her I love her? I can't even remember, but I hope she knew.Sometimes looking at Ben is so hard because I will just be hit with the sudden realization that my own mother never got to see my son, her first grandchild. She was so desperate to be a grandmother and would have just adored Ben beyond belief. At least I know that Ben has one outstanding guardian angel looking out for him!Below is a photo of my Mom holding her nephew, my cousin Connor, about 7 or 8 years ago.
5 comments:
She would be so proud of you for being such a great mom to little Ben.
Sarah
PS Great Blog!
What a great entry Staci, it brought tears to my eyes! Your mom was a wonderful person, and like you said is the best guardian angel Ben could ever have!
Amy
Tears here too! That was a nice post though, a sweet tribute to Ben's perfect guardian angel.
Oh Staci, as much as I miss Mary, I know it's so much more difficult for you. I too think about how insanely in love with Ben she would have been and I so regret that Ben will not have her gentle, loving presence as a compass in his life. But he'll know her through the stories you'll tell him. I know she's with us every day - and she knows how much you love her.
Beautiful post Staci. She was stunning!
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